Introvert.

Its 3:03pm on a saturday.

And i am thinking. 

Thinking and pondering.

What words describe me.

And that word came to mind.

Introvert.

That word describes me.

Very well actually.

I much rather stay home. 

It's not that i don't enjoy going out.

i have no problem with it.

I can go out have a good time.

But at the end of the day.

I rather be home.

Going out can be stressful for me. 

It causes me anxiety. 

I worry.

I can't control it.

I am smart.

That is fact. 

Public speaking does not scare me. 

I know i have a voice. 

Quite it may be, but i know its powerful.

But none the less going out troubles me. 

Worries me. 

There is no reason for me to worry.

Wonderful friends and a coffee shop.

Sounds idyllic.

Good conversation. 

Good coffee. 

What's wrong with me.

I can have a good time. 

I can enjoy my time out.

But it takes a lot.

Takes a lot to get out.

And let people in.

I suppose that i feel safe home. 

And that when i walk out the door the shield of a safe home disappears.

That may sound odd.

I feel you are more susceptible to pain and judgment out there.

I used to think that i had to stay home. 

Only go out when necessary.

 That was my mindset.

Was.

I have met some one. 

They make me feel safe.

Comfortable. 

I can trust them. 

I used to go out and be stressed worried, irritable.

Now i go out and they allow me to see things with beauty.

And reason.

 I don't worry like i used to when i am with them.

I am so thankful for them.

I let them in.

And was happily surprised.

I may still prefer staying in.

But i am not opposed or scared of the prospect of going out with them.

They bring beauty in to my world.

I love them.

I hope that all of you. 

My readers. 

And people who don't know i exist. 

I hope that all of you have some one who love you. 

And make your world beautiful. 

You deserve a beautiful world. 

Till another time my readers.